This is the umpteenth time I want to go. From the house five years ago kubangun little by little until eventually become a haven for me and Maya, istriku. But then again I do not feel comfortable, when the events that occurred in a night, after I write a reaction. I met kekasihku, and we love each other. He has a menungguku so long. Tergurat wound up to a yearning in the long stretch between me and him. That time I menatapnya sharp and he bowed ashamed. I say the future menujunya. He asked, "When?", As if not believing in the word and janjiku. Kujawab, "Soon."
But after that I always fail. Ten times I tried to go, never have a successful. I am still here, in the house along with Maya, istriku. When the Maya did not know about rencanaku to go. He said only occasionally and was suspicious to me. He said sikapku increasingly strange in the eyes. I usually muted suspicions istriku that hug the body with the freeze. Keningnya kiss and said, "Nothing weird. All normal course." Then Maya silent. And I do not feel guilty at all because ketidakjujuranku.
Several times came to kekasihku. Especially when the Maya are not in sampingku. I saw your face and frown kekasihku more visible fatigue.
"You what?" tanyaku doubt because of fear. I men pencemas. Especially against a kucintai.
"Too long I menunggumu. Too long I memetiki dismantling only to calculate the time that kedatanganmu false. You see, the fingers have been stiff-jariku and go. Frozen body is not touchable pelukanmu. Whiff of white smoke that waft rindumu increasingly become hazy to me. Weakened. And I sadarkan not start in the kesendirianku long. But you also do not come with me. Even more rare peek house door and knock. Kau coop themselves in a miserable death singkatmu. Together with the souls that are not really living. menduakanku Kau with transitoriness. Cintaku are on and is eternal for you. menunggumu I am in life, but you bury themselves in the graveyard that you see is fertile. We are damned long separate. "
I see a clear eye kekasihku overcast. Kuulurkan hands and say the things I feel the same. Longing that demanded the immediate penuntasan.
"I will go home. For with you," I said.
But kekasihku body shook. Tertiup night as the wind, it gradually disappeared from hadapanku. I mencemaskannya the opportunity to go without saying anything to me anymore.
Without thinking long, esoknya I decided to go away. I deliberately did not bring anything from home, because I know Maya would need if I am no longer on the sides. But until the new terrace house, see Maya. Winded up and down the menangkapku intend to go away. He was angry with me.
"You want to go? Meninggalkanku?" tanyanya with ketus.
I replied in the heart. Yes, istriku. I will go. And you know that means going to leave. But I would not meninggalkanmu. I will leave this temporariness. Kekasihku menungguku in eternal life. Then I will go, far away from this death.
Maya, istriku, install the face of disappointment. Dilipatnya scratch-scratch of happiness for this decorate the bone-colored merona. Bristle-ray eyes. As the eye kekasihku tired menungguku. I suddenly anxious. Not the Maya, but kekasihku. It seems I will fail again, to go from here. Maya, istriku, menahanku. "Do not go," he said. Langkahku stopped. Lost in the shadows kekasihku really.
Maya memenjarakanku in peluknya the smell of death. Nafasku packed kekasihku remember that far. Do not be here, kekasihku. Batinku. If not, you will be burned and jealous menangisiku the bercengkerama with the soul is not immortal. Kubiarkan Maya memelukku hold tight. Peluklah I hammer that you are able perempuanku. But you will never embrace soul. Because the soul has been longing to go brought kekasihku. And you never know it.
"Say. Meninggalkanku Why do you want?" Maya in a long embrace between.
I must go home, Maya. Kekasihku find the eternal. You're the only soul imprisoned in a tomb transitoriness. Menyedihkanku short of death. And kekasihku already unduly long menungguku. I also like merindukannya since first. Now we have met each other and fall in love. Love unify the separate long rentangan in two events. You and I, here is a death. As you embrace this offer with me. Membuatku nausea aroma by humiliation. I must go home, Maya. And I do not need to apologize for all this. Do not menahanku dolor in this, istriku. Why do not you just met kekasihmu as I saw kekasihku? Do not you also crave each other? And we leave this cemetery. Flying towards the house lovers love loved us.
"Why are you silent? Have no more valuable to you here?" Maya memelukku more closely.
Ayolah, Maya. I who is not here. I am only a wild grass that grows in between the stones that you tread. I can not even grow up. I die in kekerdilanku. Kelemahanku. Kesementaraanku which is very short. Melindungimu also I can not. Remove genggamanmu the melukaiku, istriku. Or just throw me to the river that flows beriak and slapping wajahku the rough. So that I tersadar, and is no longer menyurutkan themselves to death in a hole memanggilku repeatedly. Melarangku to go, and memelukku with the aroma of death mencekat. Maya, I will go. Kekasihku go home. And I do not need to apologize you.
"You're not mencintaiku again?"
Maya, istriku, membentengiku with fence fence-own fear and sadness. He blame himself up kepergianku. Indeed, women who mengajakku in death, I do not dare to love others than kekasihku. Do not you know I am so happy to meet with him again and knit lasting romance? Then why you want to attract a second hand back to tumble in the bottom of sorrow? Why you ask only for breast transitoriness mourn? Maya, you destroyed a breast tertusuki spine-spine clear that mengesalkanku. I started not hold.
"Do not say you have a will," Maya mengisak.
I met her in a night light. Yes, I have another one. Kekasihku of eternal life.
"I will not melepaskanmu."
Maya, istriku, this threat from you? What can threaten a transitoriness penujuan eternity? I will go home with the kekasihku. Maya, never. Let me go.
And Maya memelukku remain in the heavily pelukannya death. I dikuburnya in the night-in.
Kekasihku came to silence in one. Maya terlelap middle of night in a dream. Again kekasihku mengajakku to unite with it. "What are you waiting for? Until the death of the call and merebutmu again submerged in grief for this?" Kekasihku stretch out hands to me.
"Maya is a death wish which is always mengurungku here. It is death that has kesedihannya own colors. That can membuatku and always fall back to it."
"Return. Do not punish yourself. Death is already too long do you and the souls of others. Why do you still want to keep crying that hurt?"
Kutatap kekasihku that so long kurindu. "I go home with you," I said. I rise and leave the house, the house of love with kekasihku.
And this is the umpteenth time trying to keep Maya kepergianku. Body only terbalut sleepwear thin when mengejarku. No, not again. Pikirku.
"Okay. You may go. Did you always want to go? As before, when you want to be a bull-author. You also said that as the journey up a call. You is not up to me to hear that call. Itukah As this is the time you do? And you menyuruhku for melepasmu again, as first kubiarkan you go on the road kepenulisanmu positively nearly kill me? How egoisnya you. "
Maya became a voice in the thunder that night. Really? Batinku. Can this have died the death of the second time because of a pullout? Survival? Maya, istriku, this time you memanggilku differently. Grief of others. But why should I look and listen? Why should I forget kekasihku and menemuimu back? Why should I menemanimu in this death to continue to grieve and drowned in transitoriness? How kekasihku with the menungguku so long? I am so anxious. Kekasihku the start of the silence in itself really.
Maya near. Menghampiriku searching for the missing shadow kekasihku. Half-conscious, I am already in a very kukenal neck. Embrace of death. Maya mendekapku closely. Soul continue to think that somehow kekasihku where. Wait for me, kekasihku. I will come. Soon.
I am sorrow. Because the union once again be delayed. But given pikiranku way. I may soon have to take Maya, istriku. To leave this death. Kekasihku acquainted with the eternal. But Maya memelukku in the heavily pelukannya death. That night, and nights the other. ***
But after that I always fail. Ten times I tried to go, never have a successful. I am still here, in the house along with Maya, istriku. When the Maya did not know about rencanaku to go. He said only occasionally and was suspicious to me. He said sikapku increasingly strange in the eyes. I usually muted suspicions istriku that hug the body with the freeze. Keningnya kiss and said, "Nothing weird. All normal course." Then Maya silent. And I do not feel guilty at all because ketidakjujuranku.
Several times came to kekasihku. Especially when the Maya are not in sampingku. I saw your face and frown kekasihku more visible fatigue.
"You what?" tanyaku doubt because of fear. I men pencemas. Especially against a kucintai.
"Too long I menunggumu. Too long I memetiki dismantling only to calculate the time that kedatanganmu false. You see, the fingers have been stiff-jariku and go. Frozen body is not touchable pelukanmu. Whiff of white smoke that waft rindumu increasingly become hazy to me. Weakened. And I sadarkan not start in the kesendirianku long. But you also do not come with me. Even more rare peek house door and knock. Kau coop themselves in a miserable death singkatmu. Together with the souls that are not really living. menduakanku Kau with transitoriness. Cintaku are on and is eternal for you. menunggumu I am in life, but you bury themselves in the graveyard that you see is fertile. We are damned long separate. "
I see a clear eye kekasihku overcast. Kuulurkan hands and say the things I feel the same. Longing that demanded the immediate penuntasan.
"I will go home. For with you," I said.
But kekasihku body shook. Tertiup night as the wind, it gradually disappeared from hadapanku. I mencemaskannya the opportunity to go without saying anything to me anymore.
Without thinking long, esoknya I decided to go away. I deliberately did not bring anything from home, because I know Maya would need if I am no longer on the sides. But until the new terrace house, see Maya. Winded up and down the menangkapku intend to go away. He was angry with me.
"You want to go? Meninggalkanku?" tanyanya with ketus.
I replied in the heart. Yes, istriku. I will go. And you know that means going to leave. But I would not meninggalkanmu. I will leave this temporariness. Kekasihku menungguku in eternal life. Then I will go, far away from this death.
Maya, istriku, install the face of disappointment. Dilipatnya scratch-scratch of happiness for this decorate the bone-colored merona. Bristle-ray eyes. As the eye kekasihku tired menungguku. I suddenly anxious. Not the Maya, but kekasihku. It seems I will fail again, to go from here. Maya, istriku, menahanku. "Do not go," he said. Langkahku stopped. Lost in the shadows kekasihku really.
Maya memenjarakanku in peluknya the smell of death. Nafasku packed kekasihku remember that far. Do not be here, kekasihku. Batinku. If not, you will be burned and jealous menangisiku the bercengkerama with the soul is not immortal. Kubiarkan Maya memelukku hold tight. Peluklah I hammer that you are able perempuanku. But you will never embrace soul. Because the soul has been longing to go brought kekasihku. And you never know it.
"Say. Meninggalkanku Why do you want?" Maya in a long embrace between.
I must go home, Maya. Kekasihku find the eternal. You're the only soul imprisoned in a tomb transitoriness. Menyedihkanku short of death. And kekasihku already unduly long menungguku. I also like merindukannya since first. Now we have met each other and fall in love. Love unify the separate long rentangan in two events. You and I, here is a death. As you embrace this offer with me. Membuatku nausea aroma by humiliation. I must go home, Maya. And I do not need to apologize for all this. Do not menahanku dolor in this, istriku. Why do not you just met kekasihmu as I saw kekasihku? Do not you also crave each other? And we leave this cemetery. Flying towards the house lovers love loved us.
"Why are you silent? Have no more valuable to you here?" Maya memelukku more closely.
Ayolah, Maya. I who is not here. I am only a wild grass that grows in between the stones that you tread. I can not even grow up. I die in kekerdilanku. Kelemahanku. Kesementaraanku which is very short. Melindungimu also I can not. Remove genggamanmu the melukaiku, istriku. Or just throw me to the river that flows beriak and slapping wajahku the rough. So that I tersadar, and is no longer menyurutkan themselves to death in a hole memanggilku repeatedly. Melarangku to go, and memelukku with the aroma of death mencekat. Maya, I will go. Kekasihku go home. And I do not need to apologize you.
"You're not mencintaiku again?"
Maya, istriku, membentengiku with fence fence-own fear and sadness. He blame himself up kepergianku. Indeed, women who mengajakku in death, I do not dare to love others than kekasihku. Do not you know I am so happy to meet with him again and knit lasting romance? Then why you want to attract a second hand back to tumble in the bottom of sorrow? Why you ask only for breast transitoriness mourn? Maya, you destroyed a breast tertusuki spine-spine clear that mengesalkanku. I started not hold.
"Do not say you have a will," Maya mengisak.
I met her in a night light. Yes, I have another one. Kekasihku of eternal life.
"I will not melepaskanmu."
Maya, istriku, this threat from you? What can threaten a transitoriness penujuan eternity? I will go home with the kekasihku. Maya, never. Let me go.
And Maya memelukku remain in the heavily pelukannya death. I dikuburnya in the night-in.
Kekasihku came to silence in one. Maya terlelap middle of night in a dream. Again kekasihku mengajakku to unite with it. "What are you waiting for? Until the death of the call and merebutmu again submerged in grief for this?" Kekasihku stretch out hands to me.
"Maya is a death wish which is always mengurungku here. It is death that has kesedihannya own colors. That can membuatku and always fall back to it."
"Return. Do not punish yourself. Death is already too long do you and the souls of others. Why do you still want to keep crying that hurt?"
Kutatap kekasihku that so long kurindu. "I go home with you," I said. I rise and leave the house, the house of love with kekasihku.
And this is the umpteenth time trying to keep Maya kepergianku. Body only terbalut sleepwear thin when mengejarku. No, not again. Pikirku.
"Okay. You may go. Did you always want to go? As before, when you want to be a bull-author. You also said that as the journey up a call. You is not up to me to hear that call. Itukah As this is the time you do? And you menyuruhku for melepasmu again, as first kubiarkan you go on the road kepenulisanmu positively nearly kill me? How egoisnya you. "
Maya became a voice in the thunder that night. Really? Batinku. Can this have died the death of the second time because of a pullout? Survival? Maya, istriku, this time you memanggilku differently. Grief of others. But why should I look and listen? Why should I forget kekasihku and menemuimu back? Why should I menemanimu in this death to continue to grieve and drowned in transitoriness? How kekasihku with the menungguku so long? I am so anxious. Kekasihku the start of the silence in itself really.
Maya near. Menghampiriku searching for the missing shadow kekasihku. Half-conscious, I am already in a very kukenal neck. Embrace of death. Maya mendekapku closely. Soul continue to think that somehow kekasihku where. Wait for me, kekasihku. I will come. Soon.
I am sorrow. Because the union once again be delayed. But given pikiranku way. I may soon have to take Maya, istriku. To leave this death. Kekasihku acquainted with the eternal. But Maya memelukku in the heavily pelukannya death. That night, and nights the other. ***
WORK : Maya Wulan
Tidak ada komentar:
Posting Komentar